A friend is someone who is there for you when he'd rather be somewhere else.
Only your real friends tell you when your face is dirty.
Only your real friends tell you when your face is dirty.
Monday, May 31, 2010
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Friday, May 28, 2010
aww.. im so happy..
I'm planning to buy the digital piano next week, and I was planning on paying with my own money.. then.. Andy, Roger and my dad chipped in $450 for me! And all I have to pay is $150. Well I'm happy but upset.. my dad used up all his piggy bank.. he's been saving them for something.. but he just suddenly chipped in..
But yeaaa.. excited =] then i can learn songs that my keyboard cant fit lool
I'm planning to buy the digital piano next week, and I was planning on paying with my own money.. then.. Andy, Roger and my dad chipped in $450 for me! And all I have to pay is $150. Well I'm happy but upset.. my dad used up all his piggy bank.. he's been saving them for something.. but he just suddenly chipped in..
But yeaaa.. excited =] then i can learn songs that my keyboard cant fit lool
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Monday, May 24, 2010
Sunday, May 23, 2010
im just tired
really really tired
and im upset too
i cant do anything to help you
i feel so helpless
hopeless
and im desperate to make your life more bright
but there's nothing i can do
and you're so pessimistic too
makes it harder
i can make you smile, but only for that moment
and then i see you .. sad again..
and i feel like crying
because i cant make that smile last long on your face
do you feel like i dont care?
do you feel like the teachers dont care?
do you feel like your friends dont care?
then why.. do you keep saying that??
do you know.. how much it hurts, when you say that?
do you know.. how many people cried for you?
cant you see? everyone loves you, we all care..
really really tired
and im upset too
i cant do anything to help you
i feel so helpless
hopeless
and im desperate to make your life more bright
but there's nothing i can do
and you're so pessimistic too
makes it harder
i can make you smile, but only for that moment
and then i see you .. sad again..
and i feel like crying
because i cant make that smile last long on your face
do you feel like i dont care?
do you feel like the teachers dont care?
do you feel like your friends dont care?
then why.. do you keep saying that??
do you know.. how much it hurts, when you say that?
do you know.. how many people cried for you?
cant you see? everyone loves you, we all care..
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Never tell someone you know how they feel.
Even though your situation may be similar, but feelings are completely different.
Never tell someone you know how they feel.
Even if you have been in the same situation, you can never feel the same as them.
Never tell someone you know how they feel.
Even if you think it helps, it doesn't. You'd just make them get angry or feel stupid.
Never tell someone you know how they feel.
It's one of the worst thing you can say to someone when they're down.
Never EVER tell someone you know how they feel.
Because when you do.. you add a new feeling to their list, a hopeless feeling like there's no point talking to you anymore, and many more indescribable feelings that makes them so tired, and the next time they're upset.. you might just not be the one they want to talk to...
Even though your situation may be similar, but feelings are completely different.
Never tell someone you know how they feel.
Even if you have been in the same situation, you can never feel the same as them.
Never tell someone you know how they feel.
Even if you think it helps, it doesn't. You'd just make them get angry or feel stupid.
Never tell someone you know how they feel.
It's one of the worst thing you can say to someone when they're down.
Never EVER tell someone you know how they feel.
Because when you do.. you add a new feeling to their list, a hopeless feeling like there's no point talking to you anymore, and many more indescribable feelings that makes them so tired, and the next time they're upset.. you might just not be the one they want to talk to...
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
One of the worse things that could ever happen to me, happened 1 hour ago. Now I sit here, struggling to study. Tears are running down my face, because I can't stop thinking about it. How can someone, my own blood, do this to me. I can't take it anymore. I've tried, soo much, but there's never improvement. This always happens, when someone else besides our family, is here. Again, I end up depressed and crying. Now what, I can't concentrate on English. I have so much to do, but I've wasted an hour or two. Too much to do.. too little time. And that's all my fault for not starting a lot earlier. =}
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
LOOKING FOR MINI BAND MEMBERS IN MMC!!
Need people who enjoys working instruments (and those with good memories).
- 2 Pianist
- 1 Bass
- 1 Drummer
Practice starts after half-yearlies!! Must be willing to take up lunch time!! (Practice most likely once or twice a week)
Must have at least some experience!! Song is medium/hard!!
Need people who enjoys working instruments (and those with good memories).
- 2 Pianist
- 1 Bass
Practice starts after half-yearlies!! Must be willing to take up lunch time!! (Practice most likely once or twice a week)
Must have at least some experience!! Song is medium/hard!!
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Ummm I guess everyone's heard of that virus that started from a group in yr 11? yeah well if you wannknow it called Coxsackievirus. Here's a site if you wanna know more about it http://kidshealth.org/parent/infections/bacterial_viral/coxsackie.html
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
OMG OMG OGM YAY IM SO HAPPY!!
Phammy's mum is desperate to get rid of the digital piano, cause she thinks it makes the house look ugly since they just bought a grandpaino (thats $25000!!)
Well, the first price was $800, but then a lil bargaining was at work and I was able to lower it for $700. Now.. since they REALLY want to get rid of it lol.. it went even LOWER to $600!!!! So I can't wait til after Half Yearlies.. then I'll be able to get my hands on it lol. And it comes "FREE" with the piano stool (they usually cost over a hundred)
Phammy's mum is desperate to get rid of the digital piano, cause she thinks it makes the house look ugly since they just bought a grandpaino (thats $25000!!)
Well, the first price was $800, but then a lil bargaining was at work and I was able to lower it for $700. Now.. since they REALLY want to get rid of it lol.. it went even LOWER to $600!!!! So I can't wait til after Half Yearlies.. then I'll be able to get my hands on it lol. And it comes "FREE" with the piano stool (they usually cost over a hundred)
Yay woohooo!!
After the meeting for VET course thingymabob, went to bonnyrig woolies to buy the "girl stuff" lol. I also bought a new set of highlighter (they always go missing..) and a new pencil case!! This time, I'm sticking my name on my highlighters like Kitty so I'd know who took them =]
Watched the last half of "Australia's got talent" omgomg.. the group Jak in the box was AWESOME!! they were doing beat boxing =]
ANYWAYS, back to hospo. I gotta clean my room cause Megan and Libby are coming over tomorrow to study.
Oh yeaaa... I looked under my bed.. and i found out i missed a MASSIVE spot.. of dog shit.. it was HORRIBLE! hahaha lol and further back I found my dog in a tight bundle.. here's an update on what she looks like.. since she's 1 =]
After the meeting for VET course thingymabob, went to bonnyrig woolies to buy the "girl stuff" lol. I also bought a new set of highlighter (they always go missing..) and a new pencil case!! This time, I'm sticking my name on my highlighters like Kitty so I'd know who took them =]
Watched the last half of "Australia's got talent" omgomg.. the group Jak in the box was AWESOME!! they were doing beat boxing =]
ANYWAYS, back to hospo. I gotta clean my room cause Megan and Libby are coming over tomorrow to study.
Oh yeaaa... I looked under my bed.. and i found out i missed a MASSIVE spot.. of dog shit.. it was HORRIBLE! hahaha lol and further back I found my dog in a tight bundle.. here's an update on what she looks like.. since she's 1 =]
Anime
Ahhh... well here it is, my first anime with the whole body.. like proper lol.
I still don't know how to draw the clothes but.. it looks alright, err.. there's no eyes because its suppose to be in the shadows (it just means that im cheating cause i dont want to draw the eyes which might ruin it lol)
Soo yeaa... overall.. looks alright even though.. the body structure isn't 100% accurate but hey.. its good enough since I learnt off Sa =] She's crying btw lol
I still don't know how to draw the clothes but.. it looks alright, err.. there's no eyes because its suppose to be in the shadows (it just means that im cheating cause i dont want to draw the eyes which might ruin it lol)
Monday, May 10, 2010
How awesome lol
Next week yr 11 starts half yearlies, and its next week, that in tutor... im starting Trigs..
Well at least the teacher gave me pretests for chapters 1, 2, 3, and 6. Which i'll be photocopying at school for anyone that wants. If any of yous want it, tell me, i'll get you a copy, then you return BY monday no later, and i'll give you the results the next day =]
Next week yr 11 starts half yearlies, and its next week, that in tutor... im starting Trigs..
Well at least the teacher gave me pretests for chapters 1, 2, 3, and 6. Which i'll be photocopying at school for anyone that wants. If any of yous want it, tell me, i'll get you a copy, then you return BY monday no later, and i'll give you the results the next day =]
YAY my Cousins birthday was fun lol
-sigh- ended up with 2 blisters from ice skating, but it was fun. He invited 7 friends and only 2 came, because it was mother's day.. but again.. it was FUN LOL we played tips, and I dunno if ben told them.. cause they seem to think that im younger than them.. and they're in yr 8.. and yea they're ALL taller than me ==' My cousin never stops growing lol
and omg omg omg omg!! FINALLY now we had 100GB of net! (i thought it was 120 but.. 100 still awesome)
25GB on-peak and 75GB off-peak. =]
-sigh- ended up with 2 blisters from ice skating, but it was fun. He invited 7 friends and only 2 came, because it was mother's day.. but again.. it was FUN LOL we played tips, and I dunno if ben told them.. cause they seem to think that im younger than them.. and they're in yr 8.. and yea they're ALL taller than me ==' My cousin never stops growing lol
and omg omg omg omg!! FINALLY now we had 100GB of net! (i thought it was 120 but.. 100 still awesome)
25GB on-peak and 75GB off-peak. =]
Thursday, May 6, 2010
I'm gonna get a new phone, since the one I'm using fell in the toilet, get fixed, but the static is bad for calls =]
Oh.. and don't use Virgin prepaid. When you check your credit [255] it costs money. When you call people and they don't pick up, it still costs money. Virgin prepaid to Virgin plan costs money. And it says its free to all virgin mobiles.. SO if you're getting virgin, get the PLAN lol.
Biology excursion tomorrow!! I'm bringing my own salt, and wearing long socks. Also bring change of pants and short socks, incase it becomes hotter, or if my pants get too dirty.
ALots happening with school. Time table changed etc etc. Group stuff lol.
WARNING WARNING!! 12 DAYS LEFT TO STUDY TILL HALF YEARLIES!!
Oh.. and don't use Virgin prepaid. When you check your credit [255] it costs money. When you call people and they don't pick up, it still costs money. Virgin prepaid to Virgin plan costs money. And it says its free to all virgin mobiles.. SO if you're getting virgin, get the PLAN lol.
Biology excursion tomorrow!! I'm bringing my own salt, and wearing long socks. Also bring change of pants and short socks, incase it becomes hotter, or if my pants get too dirty.
ALots happening with school. Time table changed etc etc. Group stuff lol.
WARNING WARNING!! 12 DAYS LEFT TO STUDY TILL HALF YEARLIES!!
Shopping Night!!
Ahhh... I haven't been shopping.. for AGES..
I was surprised.. because I limited my self to a maximum use of $100 only lol.. but turns out.. I used up to $200 lol..
Ok so mother's day is coming up yea? I bought my mum an early present.. well.. actually she picked it out herself cause I dunno what to get her, and I just paid. She chose boots lol. It was $90 but discounted to $60 - something.. and here's a pic =]
Also, my lil cousins BD is tomorrow (7th) but we're celebrating it Sunday, and we're going.. ICE SKATING!! xD I didn't know what to get him, so my mum said just give him a book lol.. but he likes games.. and they're too expensive, so I bought him 2 books lol.. and they're for young readers.. I was about to get him Cherub.. but then it if he got into he'd have to buy the rest himself.. soo.. just got him 2 goosebumps books =] Here's a pic.
AND FINALLY.. for myself lol.. I got a poncho for tomorrows bio excursion, some timeouts (lol) and 2 pringles (mmmm....) ALSO.. I got the rest of Ranger's Apprentice ( 5-9 ) soo.. on that whole series i spent.. around $100? for 9 books ==' OH WELL!! At least its awesome lol =] Here's a pic of my collection lol. [I dunno why it turned upside down.. can't change that lol]
umm for COokies BD I bought her.. LOTS OF DOG FOOD! xD around $20 worth lol that gets me 19 mini dog can thingos.. that one meal thing.
Oh there's still more to blog about. YUP my dad has 100% agreed to let me have piano lessons, also getting my hands on a digital piano myself.. and my parents will probably help me pay for the piano.. but now I just need to make up my mind, and I need other peoples opinions.
Mrs. Fante's lessons : 30mins for $30.
Janelle's piano teacher: 45mins for $30.
I was surprised.. because I limited my self to a maximum use of $100 only lol.. but turns out.. I used up to $200 lol..
Ok so mother's day is coming up yea? I bought my mum an early present.. well.. actually she picked it out herself cause I dunno what to get her, and I just paid. She chose boots lol. It was $90 but discounted to $60 - something.. and here's a pic =]
Also, my lil cousins BD is tomorrow (7th) but we're celebrating it Sunday, and we're going.. ICE SKATING!! xD I didn't know what to get him, so my mum said just give him a book lol.. but he likes games.. and they're too expensive, so I bought him 2 books lol.. and they're for young readers.. I was about to get him Cherub.. but then it if he got into he'd have to buy the rest himself.. soo.. just got him 2 goosebumps books =] Here's a pic.
AND FINALLY.. for myself lol.. I got a poncho for tomorrows bio excursion, some timeouts (lol) and 2 pringles (mmmm....) ALSO.. I got the rest of Ranger's Apprentice ( 5-9 ) soo.. on that whole series i spent.. around $100? for 9 books ==' OH WELL!! At least its awesome lol =] Here's a pic of my collection lol. [I dunno why it turned upside down.. can't change that lol]
umm for COokies BD I bought her.. LOTS OF DOG FOOD! xD around $20 worth lol that gets me 19 mini dog can thingos.. that one meal thing.
Oh there's still more to blog about. YUP my dad has 100% agreed to let me have piano lessons, also getting my hands on a digital piano myself.. and my parents will probably help me pay for the piano.. but now I just need to make up my mind, and I need other peoples opinions.
Mrs. Fante's lessons : 30mins for $30.
Janelle's piano teacher: 45mins for $30.
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
star search was enjoyable. It was too cold for my liking. I'm not gonna say much cause I'm in a bad mood. So if you guys want to know more about it, maybe libby can post some stuff here =]
Why am I in a bad mood?
I'm SICK. Bloody hell that always happens after an event! My nose is blocked, my throat hurts for unknown reasons, I hae the worse stomach ache ever (it started yesterday) and Im friggin cold.. man.. i was slowly getting better and now i started coughing so much my stomach hurts so bad and i run out of air =='
So yea.. stayed home today.. my dad told me to, my mum wasn't happy. But now im banned from entering myself in stuff like starsearch (good thing it was my last chance anyways lol) but yea.. Not allowed at ALL. BUT because of that.. my dad agreed on getting me a digital piano and getting lessons *grins*
I'll just tell you some stuff bout my performance.. it went fairly well. I made a mistake (as predicted) it was too obvious because it was like a gap.. even my dad noticed lol. Well.. as i walked out, my heart was POUNDING. I sat down.. my insides were shaking, and I look at Angela, and she was ready. SO i started.. omg.. together with the piano.. my heart was doubling its laps lol. I wanted to close my eyes.. to make it easier.. cause that what i do at home, but i was too scared that even if i close my eyes my fingers would slip.. so... i changed my view, from the keys, to the piano top, to the piano's insides, and to angela, and into space lol. My foot slipped once. I swore in my head :L it ended, not too badly too. walked backstage and we chatted bout that. I seriously regretted cancelling my solo now. Because.. after my performance.. my beating heart.. being onstage... the thrill.. it was exciting! lol it felt.. awesome afterwards your act seriously.. and i feel like i just wanna be out there again, but unfortunately wont happen, and probably never again xD
Why am I in a bad mood?
I'm SICK. Bloody hell that always happens after an event! My nose is blocked, my throat hurts for unknown reasons, I hae the worse stomach ache ever (it started yesterday) and Im friggin cold.. man.. i was slowly getting better and now i started coughing so much my stomach hurts so bad and i run out of air =='
So yea.. stayed home today.. my dad told me to, my mum wasn't happy. But now im banned from entering myself in stuff like starsearch (good thing it was my last chance anyways lol) but yea.. Not allowed at ALL. BUT because of that.. my dad agreed on getting me a digital piano and getting lessons *grins*
I'll just tell you some stuff bout my performance.. it went fairly well. I made a mistake (as predicted) it was too obvious because it was like a gap.. even my dad noticed lol. Well.. as i walked out, my heart was POUNDING. I sat down.. my insides were shaking, and I look at Angela, and she was ready. SO i started.. omg.. together with the piano.. my heart was doubling its laps lol. I wanted to close my eyes.. to make it easier.. cause that what i do at home, but i was too scared that even if i close my eyes my fingers would slip.. so... i changed my view, from the keys, to the piano top, to the piano's insides, and to angela, and into space lol. My foot slipped once. I swore in my head :L it ended, not too badly too. walked backstage and we chatted bout that. I seriously regretted cancelling my solo now. Because.. after my performance.. my beating heart.. being onstage... the thrill.. it was exciting! lol it felt.. awesome afterwards your act seriously.. and i feel like i just wanna be out there again, but unfortunately wont happen, and probably never again xD
Monday, May 3, 2010
Star Search Practice
Mmm.. first day.. was.. AWESOME!!
OMG.. Roe's dancing was SIMPLY THE BEST! Man if you guys are coming, get ready for good entertainment lol. There.. maybe one... that well.. is OKAY.. but.. mmm.. yea..
ANYWAYS.. omg.. there's one vocalist that'll blow your brains away, she's TOTALLY TALENTED! As well as Angela xD
omg omg.. its a grand piano!!!! I've never seen one in real life.. and Now i get to play on it!! I was dreading that I had to use our electric piano.. but the teacher lets!! Its awweeeesome!!!! I .. just LOVE it lol. The first practice with Angela went really well.. but the second time.. I dunno what happened .. I just FORGOT where my fingers went.. and it sounded sooo OOFF lool. oh wells.. that was only because I tried not to keep my eyes 100% on the keys lol.
I'm sooo tired.. I have 3 hospo assignments due on wednesday.. and I'm worried about maths, pe and religion for half yearlies =[
Well.. goodluck everyone for studying!!!
OMG.. Roe's dancing was SIMPLY THE BEST! Man if you guys are coming, get ready for good entertainment lol. There.. maybe one... that well.. is OKAY.. but.. mmm.. yea..
ANYWAYS.. omg.. there's one vocalist that'll blow your brains away, she's TOTALLY TALENTED! As well as Angela xD
omg omg.. its a grand piano!!!! I've never seen one in real life.. and Now i get to play on it!! I was dreading that I had to use our electric piano.. but the teacher lets!! Its awweeeesome!!!! I .. just LOVE it lol. The first practice with Angela went really well.. but the second time.. I dunno what happened .. I just FORGOT where my fingers went.. and it sounded sooo OOFF lool. oh wells.. that was only because I tried not to keep my eyes 100% on the keys lol.
I'm sooo tired.. I have 3 hospo assignments due on wednesday.. and I'm worried about maths, pe and religion for half yearlies =[
Well.. goodluck everyone for studying!!!
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Saturday, May 1, 2010
-sigh- im pretty upset about the upcoming week. I'm only at school for 2 days..
On Monday and Tuesday I'm at mounties for preparation of starsearch, and on Friday I have the biology excursion. To make it more upsetting.. I have PDHPE all week! As in.. I'm missing out 3 classes!!! And there's ALOT to cover for pe, not to mention we're doing the bones and muscles part! The next topic that I'm actually interested in!! -sobs-
Also, I can't stop thinking about what that year 7 girl said about 2 people in the group. It drives me insane whenever that happens, and I can't stop it.. because when I'm thinking about my group, or anything that someone those 2 people are connected to.. it just comes and I get so fustrated =='
For starsearch, My dad, mum, and brothers are going. My grandma isn't because she thinks its stupid lol. Also, my mum is bringing along a 19yr guy that came over from Vietnam, and all he's been doing is studying. And my mum wants us (including my brother) to become friends with him lol.
To those that I have told them.. and only those may understand what im talking about:
he's the one my mum was talking about lol
On Monday and Tuesday I'm at mounties for preparation of starsearch, and on Friday I have the biology excursion. To make it more upsetting.. I have PDHPE all week! As in.. I'm missing out 3 classes!!! And there's ALOT to cover for pe, not to mention we're doing the bones and muscles part! The next topic that I'm actually interested in!! -sobs-
Also, I can't stop thinking about what that year 7 girl said about 2 people in the group. It drives me insane whenever that happens, and I can't stop it.. because when I'm thinking about my group, or anything that someone those 2 people are connected to.. it just comes and I get so fustrated =='
For starsearch, My dad, mum, and brothers are going. My grandma isn't because she thinks its stupid lol. Also, my mum is bringing along a 19yr guy that came over from Vietnam, and all he's been doing is studying. And my mum wants us (including my brother) to become friends with him lol.
To those that I have told them.. and only those may understand what im talking about:
he's the one my mum was talking about lol
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